When I started blogging, my kids were babies. Or so it certainly seemed that way. My daughter was only 9 months old at the time when I published my first post. And my son? He was not even three.
At that point in my life, my blog was my outlet.
It was my saving grace.
It was my home, my place to vent, to share, to connect.
It was my third baby.
I blogged between naptime, late night feedings and I even found myself reading and commenting on blogs in the wee hours of the morning – and to this day, I wouldn’t trade that time for anything. I loved every single second of it. Blogging got me through some of the toughest days of motherhood.
But now, I am in a different space. It feels almost strange, actually. It’s as if I am growing up – as if my blog is growing up.
My kids are also older, and growing up.
My son will be turning seven and starting first grade in the Fall. My daughter is in pre-school and will be attending full-time in September. She’s nearly four years old.
There are no more naps.
Or late night feedings.
And there is no more “luxury” of blogging in those wee hours of the morning.
My life is now consumed with helping my kids with homework, driving them to soccer games and nine million other school activities. I am out of the house more than I have ever been and even though I am still connected to the internet, I feel a bit of a disconnect.
It seems to be changing.
All of it.
So I wonder – as we evolve as bloggers, and as we evolve as mothers - do our blogs and our blogging habits change? How do you moms of tweens do it?! Many have often wondered how I blogged when my I had an infant baby, but I feel as though at that time, it was somehow easier to blog. It certainly seems easier than it is now.
I used to be home all the time. I was connected all the time.
But now, as my kids are venturing out on their own and growing up, jumping onto Twitter to tweet from a soccer game just doesn’t seem as important to me.
Or giving a Facebook update just doesn’t seem as vital anymore.
I’m not sure exactly what has changed, maybe it IS just me – or perhaps it’s just part of the evolution of blogging. And it’s certainly something I think blogging conferences should address. I know I can’t be the first to experience this.
Or the last.
Either way, I have to continue do what feels right to me. And right now, that means being completely connected to my kids. My blog, Twitter or Facebook won’t remember my son smiling on the soccer field.
But I certainly will.