I had a moment today.
A moment experienced in motherhood that brought me so much clarity.
We spent the day at my sister-in-laws. It was there that my son played with some of his baby cousins and not once did I have to raise my voice. Not once did I have to remind him to be careful with the little ones. Not once did I have to give him a warning for unacceptable behavior or the evil eye for playing too rough with the girls.
Today was glorious. It was one of those days that make raising children look easy.
As music played softly in the background and a serene calm crept over all of us throughout the car ride home, I turned toward my son who was sitting quietly in the backseat looking out the window.
I asked, “So why were you such a good boy today?”
I continued to glance at his piercing blue eyes and with folded hands gently resting on his lap, little did I know his response was about to take my breath away…
Word so fleeting, but words I have managed to hold onto for the last four hours.
Words I have replayed in my mind over and over as I have revisited that moment in my head all evening long…
“Because I always want to make you happy mommy.”
Oh my little boy, if you only knew how happy you make me. More than you’ll ever know…