I haven’t blogged in nearly a month. It’s so unlike me, but there is a reason why I haven’t touched the keys on my laptop to weave words together in this space. Over the last several weeks, I’ve been chasing an opportunity – one that I was sure God put in my path for the taking. I was absolutely convinced this was the right position for me, but to my dismay, it did not work out.
And I’ve been heartbroken.
I feel defeated, disappointed. I was certain this was the one key that would open up a whole new world, a profound path I would end up traveling – but at the eleventh hour, it all fell through.
And it hurts.
It’s at a time like this I begin to question why.
Why did I get presented with such a possibility if in the end, it wasn’t meant to be mine anyway?
Why did I work so hard trying to achieve something which now seems so futile?
Why wasn’t this picture perfect arrangement destined to be for me?
The reality is I can’t answer any of those questions. All I can do is seek inner peace by leaving it up to my faith to help carry me through. I have to believe there was good reason as to why this did not work out. Perhaps, the man upstairs has something better in store for me.
I’ve missed you. I’ve missed this blog. This recent heartache has opened my eyes to a new perspective, one that has forced me to see the many things I do have in my life that I’ve been blessed with.
They say everything in life happens for a reason – and maybe I was put through this test to take stock of what I do have and be grateful. With Thanksgiving right around the corner, this could not be a better time for reflection and redemption.
I’m also told that these tough experiences in life help to shape who we are and who we will become; that these challenges build character and provide us with unexpected strength.
So instead of drowning in my sorrow, I must dust myself off and get right back in the game because there is something better waiting for me. I’m going to take the lemons that have been handed to me and turn it into some damn good lemonade. And no need to add sugar – because sometimes the struggle is what makes success even sweeter.